One fine Friday.

Assalamualaikum :)

Last Friday was quite eventful for me. For the first time, I had pedo patient that I could call mine (not literally as my friend kindly pass him over to me). His name is Ethan, aged 7, and he's very silent. He'd just smile and grin. Despite that, he's very clever for his age. He would raise his hands (never thought him to do so) when he started to feel uncomfortable. Mungkin Ain dah ajarkan dulu kot :D

I had to perform pulpectomy on him ; RCT untuk gigi susu. Sayangnya gigi dia boleh kata semua dah rosak. So people, jangan cuma jaga kesihatan anak-anak awak je, kesihatan gigi diorang pun kena jaga. Or else bila dia sakit gigi, dia akan kurang makan pastu jadi kurus.

When I tried to inject Ethan, he shouted but he didnt push the needle abruptly like some kids. And he didnt cry. Comel betul. Such a well-behaved kid. Then Dr Uma mula risau so she asked me to get up, and she ended up doing everything on him.

Ada 1 time tu Ethan pegang2 bebird dia. Aku mmg tak perasan langsung. Dr Uma yang tanya, "u wanna go toilet?" Barula dia angguk. *fuhhh fuhhhh*

And then I did something I deeply regret ; I forgot to monitor him seriously. I thought he was sucking his lips. Then Dr Uma came and shouted, "HE'S BITING HIS LIPS! DONT U SEE THAT?"

Alahai. Berdarah dasyat bahagian dalam bibir Ethan. I felt so guilty. Sebabnya, kids tak faham perasaan kebas tu. So diorang akan test dengan cara gigit. Lepas tu bila tak rasa apa, they'll bite harder. Ethan pulak taknak gigit gauze, so we had to keep on pegang2 bibir dia sambil igtkan dia jangan gigit. He only stopped when I showed him mirror.

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In the afternoon I called my patient whom I did crown on her. Dia call pagi tu, sebab one of the gigi is vital, and she felt the sensitivity on that tooth and Dr Kiran suruh call ptg tu jugak.

When she arrived, terus Dr Kiran cakap, "Miyn, we will adjust the crown this time okay? We will do everything again. I couldnt sleep last night..."

Sebenarnya ada problem sikit walaupun haritu dah ambil final impression. Esthetically tooth prep tu mcm tak cantik sangat. Aku pun rasa mcm kena buat baru. So memang aku gelabah sikit sebab aku tak suka bila aku tak well-prepared barang2. Nak ambil final impression perlukan banyak barang jugak at the chairside.

Rasa teruk bila Dr Kiran gelakkan aku yang gelabah when he said, "Miyn...stop..and breathhhee..."

Sebab aku sendiri pun tak suka org gelabah mak nenek. hahahahahha. To be honest aku manada gelabah. Aku blurr. Dia suruh amek mixing tip, aku tak register apekah benda tu. Dlm kepala aku igtkan spatula pastu aku end up berdiri kt nurse station tu sebanyak 10 saat. Duhhhhh!

Alhamdulillah, everything went well and I had some bonding session with Dr Kiran throughout the 2 hours. He remained calm and managed to have his sense of humour. He's such a good teacher, someone that I look up to.

Bila dia cerita dia kena buat complete denture on 100 patients, around 30 FPD, 30 RPD, 15 CPD, from clinical to lab works, aku rasa macam...

Bersyukurlah miyn ko kena buat 5 unit CD je! Patutla hebat sangat cikgu-cikgu aku. From zero diorang kena buat and faham. Fuhhhh, salute habis!

So now I can proceed calmly with my crown fabrication :) Alhamdulillah. Rasa sedih pulak lepas ni takyah buat crown dah, hahahahha 2 ketoi mcm sikit sangat.

Angel Eyes

Ahhhhh. Assalamualaikum :)

Where do I begin? I'm shamelessly have to make a confession, that I..

...am indulging myself in Korean dramas. Huargh!

I was actually watching this one Kdrama tajuk dia What Happens to My Family, it was fun until I fell in love with this one cute girl dalam tu. So I began my searching about her previous drama. And from there I found Angel Eyes.

Dia berlakon 2 episod je pun, tapi aku dah tertengok sampai episod 12 ni macam mana? :S 

What I loved about the drama is, watching how the hero became helpless and gained his strength from the women he loved (mom and girlfriend). 

Just now ada 1 babak ni, whereby heroin tu rasa gerammm dekat hero tu sebab dia hilang tetibe, and then she looked at her ring, and then she was assured that he was going to come back.

Teringat incidence few days ago. When Matpau spent his money on me, and I said membazir...he just replied,

"tengok cincin kat jari tu..."

He sure knows how to make me speechless. I guess bagus lah our long distance relationship ni. Jarang contact, jarang jugak mesej, jumpa lagiiiiii la setahun sekali but he always bought me things to keep me reminded of him.

Will disclose what he bought for me in another entry bila benda tu dah sampai. Although I didnt ask for it, I sure iz happppy :)

 

#PrayForPantaiTimur

Assalamualaikum :)

As you all are aware of, banjir yang jadi dekat beberapa negeri sekarang ni is the worst flood that ever happened in our country. At first, aku mengaku aku agak indifferent sebab diri sendiri dan keluarga masih dalam keadaan selesa. But not for long after aku mula rasa affected lepas terbaca status dan kisah kawan-kawan terdekat yang terlibat dengan banjir ni.

My house used to be affected around 2 years ago. Masa tu aku di India. Dan Ummi sorang-sorang kat rumah. I was kept updated by my sister yang masa tu di KL. Air naik dengan sangat cepat pastu masuk dalam rumah, tapi Alhamdulillah cuma kat paras betis.

Tapi yang buat aku sedih ialah sebab Ummi terpaksa keluar dari rumah tu dan park kereta depan rumah kedai entah mana-mana pastu tido kat situ sebab taktau nak pergi mana.

So you could say that, I kinda know what it feels like. Walaupun kerosakan cuma sedikit nak dibandingkan dengan orang Pantai Timur sekarang ni, tapi dah cukup nak buatkan hidup kau huru hara sekejap.

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Hari ni aku bersyukur.

Haritu aku jumpa cincin RM30 murahan kat Jusco. Lepas tu aku buatlah perangai mengada suruh matpau belikan dengan alasan aku nak pakai cincin dia bagi, fake pun takpe. Cincin yang mak dia bagi tu besar sangat dan hanya menjadi hiasan di dalam lemari. Matpau being matpau (he will give what he wants not what I want) he insisted that I buy a proper gold ring, bukannya something that I will throw away later on (macamla aku akan buang :(( )

So he transfered me some money and insisted that I go look for a new gold ring. Takfaham kenapa taknak bagi 30 hengget je tapi nak bagi ratus ratus but itsokay. It's his money anyway.

Lepas aku survey2, ternyata takde cincin yang dpt menandingi cincin sepuluh yang mak dia bagi ni. Boleh kata aku tak jumpa pun cincin sepuluh (which is cincin 999 : 99.9% gold). Aku nak yang kosong baru nampak classy macam Lord of The Ring, bagi aku yg berukir tu macam kureng sikit but they are either 916 or 750 ringan macam angin tak tipu. Matpau cakap, belilah anything yang buat aku happy. Disebabkan aku tak rasa happy, aku tak beli.

Alhamdulillah bila aku tanya Habib Jewels diorang ckp boleh kecikkan cincin dengan bayaran around RM30. Mulanya it was impossible sebab cincin ni 'padu' according to the abang but tukang cincin cakap boleh. Alhamdulillah.

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So as I got a new ring, of course I need to return the balance to Matpau back right? Petang ni pulak menderu-deru iklan datang, tentang siapa nak sumbangkan tenaga atau barang untuk mangsa banjir.

So I texted him,

"Do you mind contributing some of your balance money utk mangsa banjir? Saya nak awak dapat pahala sikit walaupun awak jauh"

 He asked me how much is the balance. And then he replied;

"Bagilah semua"

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Tahniah arwah pakcik Ismail. You raised a good son. Saya harap kalau ada jodoh, we can produce a good son like yours one day. Semoga pahala kebaikan yang dibuat oleh anak pakcik, bagi manfaat dekat pakcik kat sana jugak insyaAllah.

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Pesanan seseorang..

Bila nak buat kebaikan, jangan fikir banyak kali. Hidayah Allah bukan datang selalu.

My 2nd Impaction Case

Assalamualaikum :)

Today I'm very happy and grateful. Allah had blessed me a good day. In the morning, there was a group of 3rd year students yang baru first time posting Oral Surgery. And today I had a patient for suture removal. So I asked the permission from Dr Koshy to let one of the juniors do it. He asked me to choose one but I couldnt (aku nak pilih budak perempuan paling cute tapi nanti macam favoritism terlebih awal pulak) so he picked the one on the dental chair.

She was very good. Seronok bila budak tu confident. I showed her once and guided her throughout. She didnt go gelabah like some people so I liked her :)

Then I helped them with an extraction, along with Naurah. Didnt know that teaching is fun, especially when you have the right knowledge. Rasa happy nak share dgn other people, happier when they were so keen on learning. Their knowledge on the first day of posting was waayyyyyyyy better than mine. I had..like, zero?

Then during the afternoon session, masa jalan2 dlm klinik suddenly Dr Koshy asked me to take the history of one patient (belongs to Laura) coz it might be an impaction case. Bla bla cut the story short, it was an impaction case. And I had to do it with Naurah along with Laura.

I remember hating impaction because I did it for 4 hours and it was on my brother. The guilt was still there. Like, seriously Miyn, 4 hours? But sokay ... I was actually quite excited after observing Dr Dhamindra yesterday. So I aimed to do it better this time.

.....

And yes, I was better at it. I reflected the mucose nicely, and Naurah helped to guide me. She did the splitting of the tooth, and I took 2 parts of the tooth out! And it was shorter than 4 hours hehehehhe so I'm happy. A bit of achievement eh miyn?

I believe that a person can be good at something if he does it a number of times, provided that he has the passion for it. Alhamdulillah for this another opportunity. Expecting more impactions in the future!

A Visit to Melaka General Hospital

Assalamualaikum :)

Today my group (A3) finally had the chance to go to the MGH for our Oral Surgery posting. We only go to the hospital on Mondays, and we rotate every 5/6 students each time. So basically our group is the last ones to go there.

At around 2, we waited at the lobby for Dr Venkat to arrive and accompany us there (comel kan macam bapak teman anak-anak hantar gi sekolah hehe). Sampai je klinik tu, he went to the see the person in charge and then baru dia suruh kitorang masuk, then dia pun balik lah kolej. Again, rasa macam bapak-bapak :p

I heard so many good stories about the oral surgery department, especially about this one oral surgeon named Dr Dhamindra so I was quite excited to meet him in person, and scared at the same time because I know I sure kena jawab soalan bertubi tubi pastu akan terserlah lah ketidakpandaian aku ni.

He was being friendly when he greeted us...

"Manipal students? Im Dr Dhamindra, this is Dr Johanis. Come lets see this opg..."

It was a case of impacted 3rd molars and the patient was scheduled for removal of all her 3rd molars under general anesthesia the next day. Fuhhh!

Yang comelnya diorang panggil IOPA sebagai xray kecik, OPG tu xray besar.

"Jom pakcik kita ambil xray kecik" HAHAHAHAH :p

Lepas tu mula lah boring sebab tak banyak case and Dr Dhamindra went somewhere else. So we were like mati kutu just mainly observe the instruments, the set up and how the dental officers kept on documenting their patient's treatment info.

Then Naurah went intai2 outside and I slowly followed her. We saw Dr Dhamindra inside a room, with a patient on the dental chair. Then ada abang DSA lalu, dia tanya, "nak tengok ke? Tanyala, kalau boleh then masuk.."

We got our permission then Dr Dhamindra terus tutup pintu, leaving the rest of our groupmates outside hahahahhaa. (Sorrry!)

Oh! He did the impaction case in only 15 minutes! (I actually literally recorded the time with my watch). Damn fast and nice weyyyyy. It was a clean procedure and he was so professional, cakap dengan patient dengan lembutnya I feel like everyone should remove their 3rd molar under him only. Ok over.

Then there was a case of natal teeth. Alahai so cute the newly born baby arrived in the Paediatric department dlm incubator (?) and all the DSA were trying to calm the baby. Naurah and I were so excited that the baby can brag around saying "Ya knowww, I had my first dental visit just a few hours after I was born!"

We observed how the specialist managed the baby, applying the topical LA before removing the natal tooth calmly, of course with the presence of his/her parents. Baby tu baik sangat, I'm sure he/she will grow into a good kid :)

And then we observed Dr Johanis removed an upper 3rd molar using elevators and extraction forcep. Selang2 sampaila gigi tu keluar macam eh senangnya. Then he brought us to take impression for a patient scheduled for an orthognatic surgery. Ajar-ajar sikit macam mana measure muka and ambil bites for record purpose.

To be honest, I kinda like the environment there. DSA semuanya happy-go-lucky je. Ok aku tengok yang lelaki je la sebab diorang muda and happening and ramai. Yang older sikit are females and diorang tak lama duduk kat situ but there was one helpful staff yang tolong a FYDO do charting.

I hope Allah will send me to the best place where I could learn the most, under the supervision of good dentists who are down-to-earth just like Dr Dhamindra and Dr Johanis :)

Anger

Today I got angry again.

Truth is, I really hate myself for holding things inside of me. Kebanyakannya tak bersebab dan kalau kau tanya kenapa aku rasa sekian sekian, aku pun taktau nak jawab.

Aku marah bila Fauzie sakit dan cakap nak tidur awal.

Aku marah bila aku nak balik weekend ni tapi kakak aku busy ada program. (dia offer untuk juggle between me and her works but I just dont. want.)

Aku marah bila patient aku terlepas ke tangan orang lain.

Aku marah bila aku tengok kuota Pedo aku sangat pathetic dan takde apa yang aku boleh buat.

Aku marah bila charger aku rosak, powerbank aku rosak dan duit aku pun rosak.

Sebenarnya aku sangat tau kelemahan aku. Aku cepat marah. Aku marah bila orang bagitau pasal perangai aku yang satu ni, mostly bukannya sebab aku in denial, tapi sebab aku seriously memang taktahu kenapa aku cepat marah dan aku marah bila aku marah.

Kakak aku dah banyak kali bagitau, I need to manage my anger. Fauzie cakap I need to manage my ego. He said I like to keep things to myself and not letting other people in. Aku cuma reply, aku dah biasa dengan cara ni. This is how I was raised. I wanna be strong like my mother.

"Saya tak cakap awak tak boleh jadi kuat macam ummi. Cuma awak kena faham. Ummi kuat disebabkan dia hidup dalam keadaan tu, dia kuat untuk anak-anak dia. Tapi awak bukan berada dalam situasi ummi."

Damn that was harsh. But it was a fact I refused to accept. Degilnya aku. Tapi dia masih tak putus asa dengan aku.

I'm really sorry for everything, everything from my actions that hurt people around me. A friend texted me saying sorry she thought I was angry at her. No, she was just the innocent trigger at the right time.

On a side note, seminggu tak jumpa Tuhan memang boleh kacau emosi kan.

Impromptu.

I wish I had a bunch of friends who are always excited for impromptu getaways.

It's been very hectic and packed scheduled as how final year should be. Sometimes I just wanna go to the beach, walk slowly, looking at whats happening around me, and take some time to think. Some time to appreciate the nature.

Go makan, go movies, go enjoy delicious food.

Problem is I got no company. Wish Fauzie is here. But Allah dah jawab doa aku untuk jauhkan drpd maksiat so He puts Fauzie away from me hence jumpa setahun sekali sudahlahhhhh miyn dont ask lebih-lebih.

Actually... I wish I'm home.

2014 Interbatch Culturals

Assalamualaikum :)

This weekend I finally had the opportunity to wake up a bit later than usual (being a female with the blessing by Allah for the time off solahs is amazing!). Last week I was so busy I couldnt wait for the it to end quick.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I joined the dancing competition this year. Since the competition was on Thursday, we practised quite hard starting from Tuesday itself. And bear in mind jadual semua orang tak sama. Some were stuck with their seminar presentation, some had competency test, some had electives. Phewwww final year is really testing our endurance.

Petang Khamis tu, Alhamdulillah my malay teammates yg semuanya 1 practical group (kecuali Fana) ada SDL oral surgery so we went to Jusco for a last minute accessories hunting. God was testing me by giving me massive flu on that day. Fuhhh!

Tak tipu memang aku mengantuk sungguh lepas makan cetirizine. Orang lain boleh rileks function lepas makan that pills but not me. I was feeling very dizzy and I might dozed off any minute. Before the dance, I didnt feel nervous at all sebab dlm hati memang tunggu time nak balik tido je. But, it turned out so well! All our lecturers (dental la of course ehem ehem) praised our dance because we were the only group yang buat unity dance ; Malay, Chinese, Indians, Nyonya, Ibans and finally all dance together. The feeling that I got on stage was unforgettable, apetah lagi tengok Dr Bashir joget sama dengan kitorang hahahahha. And I loved it that everyone clapped so hard for us. Mula2 ingatkan tak dapat sambutan sebab kitorang je yg lain dari yg lain but hoyeah they all loved it! Berbaloi sangat rasa practise berminggu-minggu :)) I love all my dancing teammates! We secured 3rd place by the way, hooray!

That night Myra and I mix beras for our rangoli on Friday. Rasa kesian kat diorang sebab sebenarnya aku yang beria nak masuk and I begged them to join it with me since they have the magical artistic hands, but they were sooooo cooperative and Pah came out with a beautiful morning glory rangoli for us.

There were a total of 5 BDS groups for rangoli, with 1 group being all boys ; ada TY, Kern Wern and Silk. Then ada group DJ+Yati+Ainsya, Chen Wei+Chien Ying+Jewel, lastly Nish+Bhai+Rachel. We literally conquered the other half of the hall. The time allocated was 1 hour and seriously I tel you it was not enough!!!! Our hands were shaking like hell. Dahla first time masuk takda experience so memang lembab gila nak siapkan. But we tried our best and I'm really proud of the final result. Dr Koshy said ours look Malay-ish and not like the other groups'. Aku macam nak cakap, that the whole point, sir but....I just said, "We are Malays anyway.." hehehehe.

Our group was 7th out of 9. But I'm happy as the 1st and 2nd places were secured by BDS groups as well, yeayyy! Rangoli was fun weiiiii rugi siapa tak masuk. Sedih la kenapa aku tak masuk sejak tahun lepaih kalau dak sure dah ada experience sikit. By the way kalau ada juniors baca ni and u guys plan to join rangoli next year, please tell me, I have a lot of rangoli powder that are unused. Please take them from me, sayang lah nak buang...


p/s : I dont plan to post any pictures in my blog, so if u wanna see my pictures (I basically share my clinical works and daily activities), do follow my instagram okay (@miynamin) . If I tak approve u can always leave me a direct message since I'm being selective nowadays sebab banyak pulak patients aku nak follow kt ig mana depa jumpa entah huhu.

Bye for now :)

Prostho Competency Test

Assalamualaikum :)

Yesterday, or should I say last weekend was a hectic one for me. I spent Saturday and Sunday to go searching for materials for my dancing competition and also rangoli. Ended up eating at Brother John and SimplyFish kopitiam (yeay!) walaupun tak berapa nak kaya but....my tummy needed that to make it happy, no?

And not to forget, I was still in the middle of finalising my Prostho seminar, and I had competency test for border moulding procedure both on Monday. So Sunday was a very very very stressful day for me.

Tapi kannnn, esok masa seminar, it was actually very easy. Dr Prashanti wasnt there because she had to be involved in the implant program, and Dr Abhishek and Dr Kiran didnt ask much questions. So I was quite happy :D

Masa competency test petang tu, aku agak sedih jugak tetibe tengok aku dapat dental chair demo tu, yang luaihhhh gila tuuuuu. Depan sekali pulak. Pastu depan semua takda orang. Pastu tengok2 ada a few dental chair belakang2 rosak so diorang transfer pergi depan and I was relieved hehe.

Auntie Marry came quite early so I started checking the tray extension inside her mouth. Bila panggil Dr Prashanti untuk confirmkan, she found a new epulis fissuratum inside the patient's mouth.

"This is not ethical. You cannot do competency test on this patient.."

"But maam, you were the one who approved this patient.."

"Yeah, but I'm sure it wasnt there. Knowing myself, I wouldnt approved such case"

Dr Prashanti has such bright eyes. This is not the first time she saw something other people couldnt. I really look up to her. Bila tengok, memang epulis tu baru ada.

So, she asked me to exclude that part and do border moulding on other areas. Secondary impression pun takpayah buat. Hooray?

Patutnya auntie tu kena undergo minor surgery tapi dia takuit la pulak. I will pujuk her until she comes :D

Esok insyaAllah I will perform another flap surgery. Aku buat masa pagi sebab kalau petang juniors 4th year pun ada clinic and usually mood lecturers sangat baik masa tak ramai orang. Of course la kan sebab tak berapa serabut. Hopefully everything will be fine and fast! :S

Patutnya buat laser tapi...bilik OT maybe guna untuk implant. Sobs.

Blessings.

Assalamualaikum :)

Today I had a patient who came to replace his Class IV composite restoration.

Sebenarnya first time dia datang dulu nak scaling je. Tapi 2 gigi depan dia ada caries dekat incisal edge tu. Gigi lain semua perfect. So, I told him that he needed to restore that teeth to look more handsome when he smiled.

Seriously la aku cakap macam tu. You have to care for the people around you because they might not realise it.

"What the mind doesnt know, the eyes cannot see"

He's in medical batch by the way. Sebab tu la aku buat macam kawan je huahua. He's a decent well-mannered Chinese guy, one batch under me.

After a week, he complained of chipped off restoration on one of the teeth. So I called him during my General Dental Practice to redo it.

After a week, again, it chipped off. Aduhai. Aku dah risau dah sebab I might caused him to be in pain. Exposed dentin kan.

I consulted Dr Alok regarding the issue dan dia cakap ;

"Have you checked the patient's occlusion?...Hmm, seee. Just call me when the patient comes okay? I'm not in charge during GDP but I can come. Thats what a teacher should do..."

So just now I called him. He told me that it might be because of inadequate isolation during restoration. Lepas dia ajar apa aku patut buat (selalu sangat belajar benda baru dengan beliau rasa macam nak nangis), I said,

"Sir, thank you, for willing to come here..." *dengan muka comel*

He said, "You can put your thanks in your pockets now. Dont thank me, I might redeem it for something later"

Hahaha. He is such a blessing sent by Allah to us. Really really thankful for having him here.

And the patient pulak, selalu cakap sorry sebab susahkan aku. Aiyo, he's also a gift to me. Selain baik, cooperative dan punctual, he just helped me to fill 4 quotas for Class IV restorations :p

Tahun ni Alhamdulillah, Allah tolong banyak sangat. Aku selalu doa, tolonglah hantarkan aku patient yg membenarkan aku buat treatment dekat dia dgn senang hati, yg bagi aku belajar dengan rela hati, dlm masa sama lembutkan hati lecturers untuk ajar aku.

So far, semua patients aku baik sangat2. Harapnya sampai habis final year akan dapat patients baik-baik je :)