Hohhh, yesterday can be considered as one of the worst days in my life. Firstly, masuk tido masa hampir Subuh, around 5 lebih mcm tu. So nak bangun semayang tu Tuhan ja tau betapa seksanya. Dengan badan separa stabil ala2 kain tisu yg melayang-layang :s , pastu time semayang tu sempat lagi terbayang-bayang muka lelaki masa dalam mimpi. *heeeeee!* Ingatkan nak tunggu terus Subuh, tapi siries tak berdaya, mata tak mampu tahan dah. So lepas Subuh terus terjun atas katil, habiskan mimpi yang habehh tu. Sekarang dh completely lupa dh pun, ntah sapala manusia sebok menyemak dalam mimpi dan jugak semayang Subuh tu, har har har!!
:)Kisah bangun pagi.. :)
ala, kalau tido pon time yg dah dikira pagi, nak bangun pagi amendenya kan? Kira bangun tengah hari la, or petang senang crita. Salah satu ciri2 menantu yang tak baek ;) Lepas mandi tu makan sikit, tapi mmg sikit pon sbb x lalu apa dah. Pastu bantai Sudoku brapa helai sat sambil layan cita Hindustan bodo yang aku rasa baru bulan 3 cita tu ada, ni ulang balik watpa tah.
hari tu jugakla aku diserang sesema yang teruk lagi over. Bersin kira mcm dalam 10 saat sekali, seksa woii seksa. Mata dah turun sebab daya tarikan bersin yang mantap. [I was like walking zombie u know~~] Pastu, badan ketaq sebab bila bersin ni cepat lapawww, aku pun telan ja apa ada depan mata. Seksanya Ya Allah, sabaq ja la. Sampai ke malam aku bersin ni, nasib baik hari ni dah ok, gumbira!
Around petang sikit ummi ajak kuaq teman dia setel bil and beli barang dapur. Selalu dia guna excuse suruh aku tunggu dalam keta time dia masuk bank, kalau polis mai soh ckp kt pakcik tu mak ada dalam bank sat. Well, kt AlorStar ni kan jalan kecik, bank pulak suka suki boh tepi jalan. Tapi sejak hari tu, ada polis hensem mana tah still nak saman eventhough mak aku dh kluaq bank, tgh jalan mai keta. Kiranya excuse tu tak buleh pakai dahla, terlepas la aku dari langut dalam keta mcm slalu. Lepas dia kuaq, aku bukak pc, layan cita jepun sat...2 cita aku gilir2 tgk, obses yg teramat.
Sebalikkkknya ummi dari urusan2 beliau [or shud i said 'sekembalinya'], dia pesan suruh aku memproses ayam yang dia beli. [pesiang eh org kita kata? ka perisi?] Ala, buang la extra lemak or apa2 benda yg x patot ada kat ayam tu. Fuhhh, malapetaka gak aaa. Aku anti sikit proses benda2 basah ni. Tapi mana buleh lawan mem besaq, dia mana kira aku geli x geli, kena wat gak aaa..tambah bersin gi, nasib baik time tu proses pem'bersin'an terbehenti seketika, tatau psepa, maybe dia tau aku tgh mengadap makanan kot, hihi..
Naseb baek jugak ummi beli suma drumstick, tu pun kat Giant. Mudah sikit kerja. Tapi Tuhan saja yang tau merananya aku. Dengan kulit dia yg, errr..macam kulit manusia. Isi dia pun sama la. So siries aku rasa mcm tengah potong isi orang. Cuma darah ja yang takdak. Lepas buang lemak sikit2, aku pun basuhla ayam tu. Huhu, buatpa nk buang banyak2, i need the lemak to become 45kg! Lepas basuh2 and rendam sat dengan perahan limau, drumsticks tu telah kelihatan sangat kiut malah kecomelannya sangat menggoda~
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Waaah, terasa bangga dengan diri sendiri. Bersih kannnn?
Tribute to Sri, Maisya n *tooot*. Just a pic created by Dara [itu nama glemer i la har har har!!]. Btw, budak2 beseri, sapa buleh teka nama manusia muka berparut yg hensemm ni aku blanja dia Sundae Cornetto kt McD.
(Kata kunci: dia merupakan seorang lelaki) :r
Tapi offer ni tertutup utk Palyah sbb aku rasa dia tau dh...ngee, dgn syarat anda maila turun Alor Staqq dulu okehh? ngenggggg!! :z
-Everyone is here, and i love this picture the most ;) -
-Besties again-
Hai everyone~
Pernah tepikir hidup kita 10 tahun akan datang? I'm sure all of us dream of these :
# Very good-looking husband/wife with a very happy family (n cute children i must add) :D # High-paying job # Ada banyak duit dan buleh beli apa ja kita nak # Tak payah fikir pasal stadi dah, dah jadi orang besar ni buleh control hidup sendiri dan tak payah dengar cakap mak ayah. # Enjoy hidup dengan puasss! Takdak masalah, happily ever after~
But seriously guys, or I must say 'girls only'...do u agree with me if I say that our life right now is never better? Being a teenager is the time of our life, and being single is the best of it. I've just realised and I must admit [although ego tinggi nk ngaku] that I imagined and I wanted too much in my life. Frankly I wanted my life to be so perfect, I mean in the future. I wanted everything that I've listed above. Every single thing...
Aku pernah cakap secara melawak pasai benda ni dgn sorang kawan. Then tiba2 dia cakap..
"..jauh sangat ank pikir tu weh."
Tiba2 ja aku terasa malu sendiri. I mean, perempuan memang senang terasa malu bila kena tegur dgn siries oleh seorang manusia bergelar lelaki. Kalau ada yang x malu tu, entahlah.
Sejak tu aku rasa aku taknak dah berangan jauh2 ni, macamla hidup ni akan jd sangat bahagia. Dalam cerita Enchanted pun witch jahat tu ckp sumthin like this..
"There's no such thing as happily ever after in real world!"
Ok, first of all, what Im gonna say next is NOTHING about being a superwoman or sumthing like that.
Macam mana kalau nanti aku terpaksa pilih antara kawan2 or my significant other? To be frank, all my close friends and I have no boyfriends right now although they [bear in mind that I wrote THEY] are very pretty and kiut. I love hanging out with them without any of us touching our cellphones. I mean, we did text people but not our boyfriends. We message each other frequently like evryday and share every single things together; new haircuts, gossips, missing our dear other friends, bla3. But never did we mention about things like arguing with boyfriends or sumthing related to relationships.
Ok la, kami pernah la cakap pasai tu. Tapi tu few years back, last rasanya masa f3 and awal f4. Afta that, x pernah dah. Cuma recall balek crita2 lama and suka org tu suka org ni. [Kalau x suka sapa2 tu mustahil la] Berebut org tu berebut org ni despite the fact that he is a total stranger to us and that 'thing' will never happen in a thousand years. But still, we enjoy our lives so much.
Ada orang cakap perempuan yang x berkapel ni sebab xdak org nak, yaka?[maybe betul sebab xdak org ajak pun, hahahaa]. Tapi aku rasa sangat sangatla SALAH, terasa mcm hebat pun ada. Hebat sebab aku guna sepenuhnya masa muda aku untuk enjoy dgn kawan2 daripada terikat dgn sapa2. We are girls, and it's almost impossible that we can enjoy like this after we get married. We are not men, yang buleh blah camtu ja malam2 enjoy kt mamak then balek umah pastu tido dgn suka suki. :O
There are some people who cant stay single for long. Chris Crocker kata tu 'codependency'..
Dah tgk? Got my point? [btw, mcm mana dia buleh lebih cantek dr perempuan tulen?] See, sapa kata hidup single ni tak seronok. Nak kapel tu sukati andalah, I dun mind at all. But when my friends are concerned, then it's my problem. Tak ready la utk dapat mesej pasal gaduh la, merajuk la, go to hell la with that. Kenapa nak kena share suma dengan sorang laki yg belum tentu jadi asben pun? [I mean at such a young age like me, 17!] Letting the boy to hold your hands as he pleased, touch u here and there, talk about marriage and even select names for your unborn babies! Girls, wake up bebeh~
I didnt say that it happened to my friends, for that Alhamdulillah la. Hidup tak semuanya best. Especially bila dah ada family baru nanti [i know it's too early for me to talk about this]. My mom selalu cakap..
"...jangan kawen awal, bagi habis phD dulu, keja 5 taun camtu baru kawen, nanti dah ada anak2 susah, jadi mcm ummi pulak..."
Tapi tok aku pulak cakap mcm ni..
"..tok suka cucu2 tok kawen awal, senang nanti. Ummi tu cakap mcm tu sebab dia risau kt hampa, tapi kita doa ja la. Bukan suma orang akan jadi mcm dia kan?"
Yaaah, tepat sekali tok, except part kawen awai tu. Hahahaa, memang aku tak penah plan nak kawen before aku 25. Ummi is just being protective coz she didnt want us-her children to end up like her. Mesti kerja katanya, in case apa2 jadi dah ada stable life. Yala, aku x masuk mrsm dan struggle dgn susah payah just to be a housewife... *no pun intended ok*
Banyak aku belajar dgn hidup aku sekarang ni dan jugak hidup dia. Kadang2 rasa mcm aku ni superwoman yang boleh hidup snirik tanpa bergantung dekat sapa2, just like my mom. But to tell u it's damn hard. Pagi2 dah kena drive 30-45 minutes nak p kerja, balik pun sama. Duit tol dah brapa juta habis sebulan [gila la buduh tol byk nak mampusss]. Kena masak lagi pulak. And sorila to say tapi aku memang x berapa selalu dan suka makan luaq, sebab ummi memang masak dari dulu. Masa ada maid dulu pun ummi x penah bagi maid tu masak lauk, setakat breakfast bodo2 tu ya la. Sangat bersyukur untuk itu sebab aku sendiri rasa tak susah untuk masak even u are a career woman pun. Masak ja la pagi2 then tinggal. Pandai2 la anak tu nak makan snirik. Yang penting mesti minat katanya. Teringat lagi betapa kalutnya ummi pagi2 masa aku sekolah dulu sebab nak buat bekal. Btw, aku bawak bekal sampai aku form 4, ebat x? Then afta masuk MRSM x bawak dhla, haha..
Lari habis dah dari tajuk kan? Sampai ke mak2 punya crita suma kuar habis. Actually I just wanna stress here that eventhough u are married someday, u still have to prioritise ur friends. Bercinta mmg best, tapi x sebest hidup free. Terpulangla pandangan masing2. Maybe I can say this because I have wonderful friends who will stand right beside me in whatever situation I am in. And I will never change them for anything.
Walaupun susah nak jadi rapat mcm dulu [i mean for my schoolmates], tapi still buleh usaha. Mesej ada, email ada, mcm2 ada, hihi. Perempuan bukan mcm laki yang boleh senang2 ja keluar rumah then balik lewat malam. Tak manehhhh kata org tua2, haha. [I'm kinda old-fashioned and close-minded when it comes to certain things, but why shud i care? it's my life anyway.]
So dear, dun devote your life to one person when it's not the time yet. You can love him, but dun make him your everything. Remember, u still have your family and friends. Or else u might end up losing all at once. Live life as u want, but u must always be rational. Dont turn out to be like those cheap girls and then got frustrated when the guy doesnt want u anymore. Ada banyak lagi benda dalam dunia ni yang kita x discover, and we are still young, so we have plenty of time to do that. Hoooray to ourselves lah! Whether it's with your friends or with your loved ones, keep yourself level-headed okess?
And I copied this from my friend, Zetty-my one and only friend which her words can calm me in just 5 minutes.
"...there are people DYING to fight for a chance to LIVE their lives the best they can,but some of us,juz think of dying when we havent even gave ourselves the chance to TRY and LIVE to the best!juz think about that ok..."
Sori if some of you think otherwise and didnt agree with me, I was just expressing my opinions.
Irfan yang hensem tag i la kali ni, hihi..nah ambek irfaann.. :#
Name 15 people from your class randomly. Do not look at the questions below before naming them. [1] ija [2] syah [3] zati [4] farhana [5] aqi [6] izani [7] amalina [8] farhan [9] hafiza [10] saya snirik!hahahahahah [11] fauzan [12] ayu [13] ummu [14] anis [15] hazwan
--Now answer these questions--
1. Who is number 3's crush? [x] oih dia sgt setia kt boipren dia..tp dia minat thaqif klas B! :$
2. What do you think of number 6? [x] bila dia mesej aku secara otomatik rasa cm nak balin tukoi kt dia eventhough masa kat maktab kami sgtla baek..entahla, maybe ayat dia agak rude bg aku..
3. How old is number 5? [x] 17 la syg~ :k
4. Is number 15 a class officer? [x] dok dok :o
5. If you think of number 13, what's the first thing that comes to mind? [x] menakotkan~ :v
6. Do you have plans with number 4? [x] dak, dia dok sbelah aku dlm kelas, kat dia la aku tungging2 utk lena.. :s
7. How about number 7? [x] kawan baek si farhana~ ;)
8. Does number 14 like anyone from your list? [x] xla, dia sgt sweet.. :p
9. Name three things about number 10? [x] hahahahahahaha . baek ati . sopan santun . baru saja menipu~ :x
10. Do you remember the first time you actually said "hi" to number 11? [x] uihh, memerlukan keberanian yg utuh utk cakap ngan dia..=P
11. Have you ever been groupmates with number 13? [x] penah2.. :f
12. Have you ever had a fight with number 8? [x] penah time f4, suka antaq mesej puji2, dia igt aku cm fomfuan len kot, skali kena daihh x mesej dh, wahahahaa..tp skrg okla, dia bekk~ :d
13. Do you chat often with number 9? [x] x jumpak dh sejak amek result, i mean x kontek..
14. Are you and number 2 close friends? [x] dulu aa, then dia ckp benda buduh, trus jd pelik dh..tp dia bekk la..
15. Is number 1 pretty? [x] lurus, tp byk org suka, maybe sebab dia ni 'bersih' kot =D
16. What would you say if number 12 and 14 were dating? [x] cacat! :z
#rasanya dh ada kt fs benda nih, so i'll stop the tag here la, lenkali tag la aku lg eh~~ :D
I did not manage to get up at 9am today after several times attempting to do so. Usually after Subuh, I wud then set my alarm at 9 ( oh masih semayang Subuh yah). Well, the truth is I woke up but I closed my eyes again. Har har har, I couldnt resist the seduction of morning breeze lah. Best oo tido, but it didnt feel that good when u woke up at 12pm. So I got a headache until evening.
Tomorrow is my last attempt to prove to my mom that I can wake up early in the morning, well not that early lah. But for me 9 is wayyyyy too early. But how could I when Step up 2-The streets is still buffering. I might not have the mood to watch it tomorrow, so I must finish it tonight by hook or by crook. I still got another 40 minutes to watch, plus the buffering time, it makes a total of 2 hours or something. Waaaa, pukul brapa nak tido nih??
Just now I went to MARA website to check if I got the 'Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor'. I guess I was demented for a while coz in the ad it clearly stated that it is for people who took medicine under JPA, yaaah, JPA! Awatla susah2 p cek padahal aku amek dentistry, under MARA pulak tu..uh uh,maybe I was too excited to go to the new Hospital Sultanah Bahiyah to get to know the life of a doctor. (never mind the stench of medicine or even blood the doctors have to inhale evryday, perghh). But maybe in the new hospital they got something to neutralise the odour? Like turning on more Ambi Pur or Glade fragrance, ngeh3...
Not to forget I also went to MRSM Beseri's website and guess what? Ada gamba aku la tengah peluk kakak kerani yang bagi slip SPM. Bangge bangge, but I dont think people will know that is me anyway. Coz pakcik tu amek gamba tepi ja. But the main reason I was damn happy is because there are a lot of other people's happy faces, in rejoice after receiving their greeaaaaat results. Im happy for my friends, yayah.
Owhhh, I just knew that Abg Azuwan fotograferr psp tu dah kawen, piwitttt! Dulu dalam PSP adala gamba dia dengan girlfren dia masuk Cari Menantu. Lawak jugakla, I mean why Cari Menantu? Masukla Average Joe ka, hahahahah. What's her name eh, saila sumthin, I forgot. But she's very pretty la, so Abg Azuwan must be very proud of having such a beautiful girl like her. While taking a glance at their pictures, I kinda imaginating my own wedding, kah3 *gataila lu*. They wore purple+pink punya baju. Chantekkss! Tengok gamba la, rumentikk smacam sampai aku tekesima seketika, ngeh3. Abg wan abg wan, aku and Maisya dulu penah janji nak amek dia tangkap gamba kawen kami. Dia kata orait ja. Arap2 time tu dia kempehhkan perut dia sikitla, al maklumla selalu laki dh kawen ni maken 'sejahtera', hahahahaa...masa belum kawin pun dia dh 'kiut' sikit dah..=P
Teringat pulakla dekat Abg Zam, tukang tgkap gamba jugak yg slalu candid gmba org depan2 muka tanpa segan silu. He's very funny la n very frenly also. Once I lost my shoes and he kindly offered to send me to hostel with his car. At first tu nak naek jugak, but then mcm x maneezz ja kan? so balikla jalan dgn kasut buruk sapa tah. Aaahh, too many good memories in Beseri...
Dalam web tu ada sebut pasai plan utk ex-beserians. Maybe gathering? I dunno, but dia just cakap org2 yg berkaitan tgh merancang sempena 20 tahun beseri wujud kt Malaysia ni. Bayangkanla kalau memang gathering~ are they gonna to invite us? The youngest ones? I mean leavers yg paling muda , batch 22 la kan? Hahahahaa, cant imagine meeting with all those pakcik2 kaya, not to forget makcik2 stai..Waaaa, i hope I could come to Beseri as an Anseri and give a talk to them, I mean the students, my adek2.. *wink*
Rindu kat Cekgu Salim la, ada videos dekat situ about preparation for the cross-country, the cameraman said "utk students2 yg dok dekat oversea tu, kalau rindu dekat Cikgu Salim, ni la muka terbaru dia~!!"
Hihi, am I being too emotional? Well, I am emotional..coz he is such a good teacher and he once gave me and Ayu a ride to Kangar and even offered to give me a private tuition on Add Maths. But I was too afraid that I might disturbed him during recess, so I never went to his office but instead waited outside for him to come out if he was free.
Actually, aku x penah pulak rasa mcm dah habis sekolah. Kadang2 tengok budak sekolah bawak basikal, rasa cam kiut semacam ja sampai telupa dorang tu budak2 mudeee. Ngeh3, maybe becoz I love school boys more than the bigger ones. Yala, diorang ni masih lagi kemas, dressing pun x over lagi, kiranya mcm nerd lah. But Im not saying that Im into them okehh?
Better stop here la, and recall everything in my mind and not expressing it here, nanti terlebih pulak. Aaaaah, I mish being a school student again...Why do I have to grow up?? Im willing to experience evrything all over again, Im willing to wash my clothes in the middle of the night. Im willing to be scolded by ustad for sleeping in the class. Im willing to face every embarrassment once again. Im willing for everything..everything, every single thingsssss! But I cant~~~
Guess what? I've deleted all my previous entries. Well, I dont have the answer why I did that but I have my own reasons. As today is Maulidur Rasul, I just wanna start from the beginning and trying to be a better person. I don't wanna remember all those shits that ever happened in my life [although we must remember the past to move on] and decided to enjoy life as much as I could.
First of all, as a 2007 SPM leaver, Im very grateful and thankful for my achievement although I wanted more [but to be true I nvr expected more than what I got]. Alhamdulillah, before this I prayed that no matter what it turned out to be, biarla result tu setimpal dgn apa yg aku dah usaha. I am satisfied, I couldnt ask for more.
I've been applying whatever scholarships that are available out there regardless they offer dentistry or not. I wanna be a dentist, anyway in case u don't know. So far, only MARA n JPA are kind enough to include dentistry in their package. Although JPA scholarships give u more cash but I chose MARA instead, [India pon India laahh!] because I don't think I can compete with the Chinese, Indians and bla3 races out there. Well, I'm not as confident as I used to think. I don't have much self-esteem. I am a turkey most of the time. Selalu berani tak kena tempat.
As for the rest scholars, I chose actuarial science, coz some said gaji mahai! Hahahaha, but Im not interested in making friends with numbers. So I hope I'll get that MARA scholar although the interview has not been done yet, and I don't even know if Im qualified for the interview or not. Pray, pray, and pray..thats all I have to do. To all my friends..Fadzliyah [I have what she have, we cannot be separated I think], Alya, Ija, Majid [ oooohh, I miss My Chan so much~] Aina, Myra [God willing, we'll go to India together, urghhh, I want it badly], Zetty [be patient, keep on singing n stop calling me pariah-to-be!] Kiah, Ariatt, Milya, Ayu [no wish for u, offense meant] and everyone, may u get what u want...
Seriously I dont wanna grow up. I hate studying, n I love holidays although I do nothing but watching movies and dramas from the moment I wake up till I close my eyes once again. What a joyful life! I've got nothing to worry about [except about my future] and I got nothing/nobody to piss me off. God, make me 17 forever!!~
Selawat and salam upon Prophet Muhammad, may Allah bless him.
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